You are probably reading this thinking… what? how? when? why???  But yes it is true  I was addicted to pornography for many years. It was as a result of being molested when I was young .So from a very young age I had strong sexual feelings. This is when it began…

At 7/8 years old I started watching pornography. At first it was the occasional times when my parents were not around. I would scroll through TV channels  specifically looking for the  “bad channels”. But soon I wanted more  so I started using the family computer, searching for websites to satisfy my desires. By  the age of 11 /12 I knew what websites to go on and what channels to watch (and what time certain programmes would be on TV). I would take any opportunity to watch pornography. This carried on through my teen years .

It  got to it’s peak  when I came to university. I had my OWN ROOM and a WHOLE LAPTOP to myself. I could watch pornography when I wanted to, so I did.  I remember some nights I would watch video after video for 8-10 hours straight and then go to my lecture .

But luckily I started to grow in my faith at university. I knew watching pornography was wrong but I didn’t know what to do and who to tell. So I tried to stop watching it , sometimes I would go a good week or if I am lucky a good 2-3 weeks  without watching it. But then I would get upset over something and run back to it. Makes me sick to say but I used it as some sort of therapy. This became like an endless cycle for me. Meanwhile I was still trying to grow in my faith. I started to study my bible and pray more, and  for the first time in early 2015 I actually  prayed to God about my pornography addiction. I never really prayed about it before. Maybe it was because I couldn’t accept the fact that I was addicted to it or I  was too ashamed (only God knows).

It has been a long 13 years of my life. But with continuous prayer, transparency with God and being intentional with my relationship with God . I can finally say with all confidence that  I,  Daniella Baidoo is free from pornography addiction.

Imagine me being free, trusting you totally
Finally I can…Imagine me
I admit it was hard to see
You being in love with someone like me
Finally I can…Imagine me ♫

(p.s practical steps of how I dealt with my pornography addiction will be coming soon)

 

 

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