It’s the end of 2018 wow
I have learnt a lot this year, mainly I learnt the power of faith. My title is Am I good enough because at the beginning of the year I asked my self this question so many times .
One of my leaders in church prayed for me about a year and abit ago. They mentioned my lost years of education will be restored. I knew that meant I had to go back to university. But the fear of failure was holding me back. If you have read some of my other post you would know I want to eventually work with children that have gone through abuse and rejection. However my first degree wasn’t related to that and to get where I want to go I had to study social work.
So earlier on this year I started the process of applying with a lot of encouragement from friends and family. When applying, for a joke I searched the top university in London for Social Work . I applied to that university and others. I already thought I wasn’t going to get an interview for that university but if I did I would use the feedback for my other interviews. A few weeks later I got replies from all 5 universities asking me to come to interviews and assessments . My second interview was at that top university in London. That interview was interesting. I got asked some random questions about my faith in God, LGBT community etc . Anyways they said they would get back to me. About a week later to my surprise they accepted me. Not only that they said I was nominated to get a bursary. I was so shocked.
I thought this must be God….. but guess what God wasn’t done. One day I was praying to God saying I don’t want to take another loan out but the bursary doesn’t cover my tuition fees what am I going to do etc. After praying I went to the university’s website and realised they had a scholarship for master students in the department of Health and Education. So I applied and left it to God. A few weeks later I got an email saying I was on the waiting list. I prayed about it again and I was saying to God “make a way where there seems to be no way”. I had the faith that God could shift things for me. I have never had that faith before in my life.
Weeks went by still no email. It was getting closer to September. Then an email popped up on my phone saying “Congratulations….” I opened it and yes you guessed it. I got awarded the scholarship. I even have enough money for transport and other expenses. God met beyond my needs and literally the years of my education is being restored right before my years. I am studying a fast track course which should have been for 3 years in a year and a half.
I have also been able to get a laptop and printer for free. The favour is MAD. Everything has confirmed that I am good enough to study a masters. God thinks I am good enough and that’s all that matters. Don’t let fear stop you from doing what you need to do. As we are stepping into another year make a decision to fully put your trust in God. He won’t let you down.
Even when I don’t believe in myself God believes in me
So I will continue to be planted in him like a tree
A tree in living waters
Where my trust is without borders
Happy new year in advance!